the other day, i opened our door to the sight of a delivery man with arms extended, ending in a vase of beautiful fall flowers.   i naturally assumed they were for jenna, but the card read my name.  the gesture was adorable (as always), and made me cry (as always) and i knew that it could only be from one person (as always).  she wont read this, but the flowers and her wishes recharged my faith in everything, in people.

a few days later, i woke up to an amazing email from a seriously inspirational person (you know who you are!), that touched me so much.  not only for the content of the email, but for the fact that she recognized how much i needed to hear her words.  they went like this:  Please dont get yourself down if things arent happening according to plan - thats PART of the plan.  Where you are is exactly where youre supposed to be, and will only lead you to where youre going. 

then there are things like my roomate (who ive known for, what, a few months?!) randomly getting me a pair of earrings she saw just cause she thought i would like them... family members going above and beyond... messages and letters...etc etc.

...so basically im in love with everyone.

other stuff that makes my grinchy heart burst:

im going to austin city limits all weekend (yet another gift from someone i hardly know), and am so excited to see some bands that ive really been wanting to see.  then one weekend where i plan to get stuff together and relax.  and THEN, my friends, THEN comes the fun.  i am seriously so anxious and jumping out of my skin to be back in new york.  i really hope that i can fit in visits with everyone while im there.  im just going to have to make it happen.  what i also have to make happen is to NOT get an apartment/job while im there.  no joke, im gonna have to hold myself back.  what can i say?  that city is in my bones...and its metastasized.

my heart strings working hard

an alternating dig and pull

but im just spinning wheels.